If God doubled your “bag,” would you trust Him to fill it?
Let me explain.
This whole blog from November 2018-January 2020 was about the process of discovering what was next for me. I explored new interests, became intentional about my writing goals and aligned with organizations I felt drawn to.
When the door finally opened for me to work again, I went in full throttle! In fact, I hadn’t posted in a year because I was so much into the work. And it also seemed like there was no more purpose for this blog since it was mainly about that transition period.
Well, another “transition” came.
I unexpectedly got let go from my most recent job in March, due to no fault of my own. If you follow me on other platforms, this isn’t news to you. I took the news very well, even though I was shocked.
Anyway, when this happened, I had almost double the amount of savings that I had when I quit my business counselor job in 2018.
(Side note: You’ll hear me talk about savings more than salary because I have control over my savings; I don’t have control over my salary typically.
As the story goes, I saved double the amount of money in half the time, with a smaller salary. #WontHeDoIt)
If you’ve been keeping up with this blog, you know that I was out of work for over a year during my sabbatical.
This time, I don’t know how long it will be. This time, the economy is in the middle of a global pandemic.
So I’m taking things into my own hands and doing entrepreneurial projects, workshops, etc. while I wait for the next career door to open.
And I’m using the principles I wrote about in my E-Book, “How to Stretch Your Emergency Fund During a Crisis” to stay on top of my finances. Which, by the way, was super prophetic because I wrote that a year before COVID. Then, BOOM! Crisis happens.
When I ask the question: Would you trust God to fill it? what I’m asking is do you trust God to do what He did before?
If He healed you before, do you trust Him to do it again?
If He restored that relationship, do you trust Him to restore this one?
If He opened the door for that amazing opportunity, do you trust Him to give you an equally-amazing one?
And really, I should be asking all of those questions in first person.
Do I trust Him?
My “bag” is the metaphor of the financial resources, tools, skillsets, etc. I’ve now acquired.
And it being “filled” symbolizes the next opportunity to work those skillsets.
This is what my internal battle has sounded like the past couple of months:
I’m supposed to trust Him again?!
After all the seeking, praying, fasting and crying the first time?
Yes, even again.
Even when it looked like things were starting to get stable and they turned out not to be?
Even when I was just getting used to my role after being there for only a year and then I had to say goodbye?
Let me be the one millionth person to tell you: This faith walk isn’t easy.
But I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’m not called to live a regular life. I never was.
If my ability to trust God, steward my finances well, build strong relationships and creatively monetize my gifts blesses someone in the process, then it will have been worth it.
I really believe that there’s a life that God wants us to live where we aren’t striving. We aren’t scurrying to rub two pennies together.
We are thriving.
We are living in community. We are leaning on one another. We’re not competing with each other.
We are being the hands and feet of Jesus.
And we’re being taken care of by our Father in heaven, who clothes the lilies of the field.
I’m not sure what’s next for me.
I have some ideas, but it’s not time to share them yet.
I just wanted to give an update because it’s been a while.
In my last blog post, I was celebrating 1 year at that job!
Funny how things change.
Until Next Time,